Parent’s Blog: Me, my partner and my personality disorder
I recently found someone who made me happy. I mean whole heartedly, head over heels, cringe worthy, happy and we’re good together- that is until my personality disorder joins the mix. Often my Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) feels like the third person in my relationship, like a really toxic unwanted third party. Now I know that all relationships have their moments but with my BDP I felt unable to communicate and just be present in my own relationship.
So I did what any millennial would do and googled “how to maintain a relationship with BPD'' however I didn't find quite what i was looking for. Instead of reassurance I found articles on how to overcome toxic relationships with people with borderline personality disorder amongst other horror stories and jokes about mental health, but what really got me was a statistic. It's funny really how just two numbers could send me spiralling. The statistic stated that most people with BPD cannot and do not maintain long term relationships, a bold statement from some unknown writer yet I projected onto this as my truth, as if it was some sort of confirmation of all my negative beliefs that I would never be happy. Looking back I may have been a little quick to hop on the dramatics especially when there are so many other blogs, articles and statistics that prove it is possible to have a personality disorder and live a full and happy life.
It’s almost two years later and I have surpassed that statistic.
With a lot of work, communication and the right person I guess. I have learnt that it’s okay to wobble, no relationship is perfect mental illness or not. So my advice? Don't be too hard on yourself the more you fixate and stress the bigger the strain on the relationship. If you are ever in doubt just ask, try and communicate openly so you can get the reassurance you need, and if you are with the right person they will accept you; they may not always understand but they will be there no matter what.
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